A number of years ago I began a new mantra “I am free of fear.”
When I first started saying it I heard my mind fight back saying “NO – fear is not always bad, sometimes it keeps you safe.”
At first I didn’t know what to say to my mind’s response to my mantra so I did not respond and keep saying to myself “I am free of fear.” After a day or two I went through it again. I said my mantra, my mind responded
And then awareness blossomed. Fear does not keep us safe, wisdom and understanding does. While being fearful of fire might keep you away from fire it does not necessarily keep you safe from being hurt by fire. If you were put in a situation with fire it is very possible that you would be unable to act to take care of yourself, because of your fear. But when you can approach fire with wisdom and an understanding of how it works and what it can do, there is no fear. There is respect. So, no, fear does not necessarily keep us safe from anything, understanding does.
Then I became acutely aware of fear one early morning. I was lying in bed around 4am and suddenly I felt fear. It was a heaviness, tightness and a darkness. It was like it flew in through my bedroom window. It came out of nowhere. I immediately started to attach reasons as to why I might feel fear. My mind was trying to put labels to what I was experiencing. I decided to say no to fear. I turned down all the thoughts and refused to play and attach to any of them. The thoughts became more chaotic, changing and morphing in front of me. Each getting more extreme. I continued to refuse to play. That is when an amazing understanding dawned on me… This fear was a random energy and not attached to a reason like; being unable to pay my bills, failing at my business, being alone forever. It was something separate, outside of me even, unrelated to me. When I came to this awareness, fear stopped and something amazing happened. I understood that I did not have to label it to match any experience I had, that I could simply see it as something that was not me, a separate energy and allow it go on by. I now clearly saw my habitual response of feeling fear AND THEN putting a label on it to fit my current situation. When I stopped there was an instant shift within me. The fear was not mine and since I was choosing not to put a label to it, attach to it, it had no place to land.
For us, for humanity, it is not about eradicating the fear OF SOMETHING it is about DISCONNECTING FROM fear. Our minds attach the “of something” – whatever it is that fits our life experience, fear of not having enough money, being cheated on, dying, of losing someone we love, losing our status – this list is infinite. We have believed that when we experience fear there must be a reason for it. We put a label on it. I now understood that when we run around healing the fear “of something” we are healing small pieces, which while it is important, it’s not complete.
When we can experience fear as something that is outside of us then we can understand that we do NOT have to accept it as part of our being. When we see it as something outside of us we can allow it to pass us by. As fear has fewer humans who refuse to participate in it, it will be transformed to something of the light
Because there will be no other place for it to live.